Bought a new pair of boots last week. it was nice, comfy and i found my size plus.. its flat... love flat boots.. love heels but i'm never good in them... hehe... of cos i wish to wear nice boots with heels.. but i'm just not a heels person.. sigh...

anyway.. broke.. till i get a proper job, i will get heels for work..LOL.

week break over so that means exam is coming.. oh no.. jia you jen... have to pass...

driving lessons so far is ok.. but sturbon me.. still tend to drive too slow or too fast, turnings not so good. sobz... sigh... jia you! you can do this.

i still miss him but not that much anymore.. i think is a good thing.. no point lingering my feelings on him cos like i say before and my friends all think so.. nothing will happen... too many things to take into considerations.. so move on jen. maybe the right one is yet to come ... will it come in the next 5 years? before i turn 30? i do hope so.. but the love god might play a joke with me by never matching me with anyone.. LOL could i be lonely for my entire life?

i still remember what angie said to me abt 3-4 yrs ago..." i need to love myself first before someone else can love me" but how do you actually do that? i've been trying my best to love myself as much as i can... try to lose weight..etc... sigh...man, love and life... its just something hard to predict.... oh well..... am 25 now.... old.. like joe say... will i only get my first love at 28 and end happy or in tears? i dun know..

oi! love god, i know i not pretty and slim.. not perfect but not cruel or evil type.. why no one like me leh? sigh! .. back to my studies... sigh.. now must grad first... its the most important thing in life right now. dun wish to disappoint my family again!

my new handphone pouch

thinking of him again

i was trying my best not to think of him by going gym, taking my driving lesson, drown myself in my studies and work. basically doing anything other than thinking of him.

but things just pop in once in a while just like today.. wasn't thinking of him at all.. but so happen this guy who looks like him board the bus. sitting near me.. OMG! how to not to think of him??!!! Dun worry that is not him on the bus.. as i know he is in france now... ai yo! so look alike... my god.. i keep trying my best to look away and not thinking about him.. try to think something else like my poor leg - twisted it ytd. sobz so n gym for this week.

things like this always happen.. i mean abt him.. in uni.. at bus stop waiting for the bus.. my god.. saw a student that looks like him... so many ppl look like him.. am i seeing things??!! my god...

is my inner mind so desperate for a boyfriend that i am starting to imagine things? though at the age 25 still no boyfriend not like most of my friends who have plenty of it.. sometimes i do envy them... hmm.. maybe becos i am fat that's why no bf lah... working very hard to lose weight.. trying my best.. sobz... oh well back to my taxation.. got to finish so i can do audit.. its more scary!

last night... thought of him again.. went face book to search for his name.. and guess what.. i found him.. this time is really him as there was a picture of him posing during CNY in one of the SG shopping center. not sure where could be tampiness but anyway... suprise to find him... the previous one i said i found one.. was a different one... haha.. this prove my friend wrong.. there can be more than one same name same surname in france. france so big.. LOL... kidding!

but found him, i didn't do a thing... just smile at the pic.. silly right... if i add him or poke him.. he will be thinking i actually spend time to search for him in facebook.. LOL... oh well... i believe i will forget him soon with my busy studies... super stress this week! tmr i have my tax quiz.. stress.. better get back to my studies...

but i still happy to see him in facebook

i haven blog for a while... hmm.. where to start...

uni starts.. tax and audit is really tough. they both are important units and everyone ask me y i put them together. i dun know. sobz. now i haven chosen it.. i got to stick to it... can't fail.. nonono....

having a tax online quiz.. haven study yet. oh god... come on jen u can do it. i think on wed or tue i saw a guy that looks like daniel. damn it... make me think of him again.. sigh... anyway... i only can say.. oh well he is like million miles away. no chance lah... hehe... better get back to my books.. i'm 3 weeks behind!!!!! nonono

1/3/08

Today i found out that i didn't manage to score grade 7 for all the 4 sections in my IELTS test so which means i won't be able to apply for PR. My friends over here ask me to retake. I don't know. Don't feel like retake. Not that i don't like perth. I do love it here. Its just my heart is with my sister. I miss her so much... excuse. i think i just miss the life in Singapore. but that doesn't mean i wun miss the life here. I will too. the main thing is i am afraid i might be able to get a job here. You need at least a PR to get a job plus they look at your grades. In SG, they look at your grades too but at least i dun have to worry abt the citizenship. so i think i will return to SG.

But i will still give driving another try. I am still scared. i still have the fear in driving... but i will force myself to overcome it... i hope i do.. but i think i will give myself a limit. if i fail 3 times. i think i will stop. i dun know. see how it goes.

yesterday came home, browse through facebook. i think i found him - daniel. no pic though so not for sure. but his location is in france with a few sinagpore friends. wondering is it him. it has his surname. haha.. oh no! i'm still thinking of him... come on jen.. forget him already.. its never going to happen... snap out of it... grow up... argh!!! okok.. better get back to my tutorials.. so many to read and do... 3rd yr units are really really really tough! all the best to me lah.

My whole trip in general

I was advice that.. to write it short and simple... actually i am also kind of lazy to write alot.. hehe

this 2mths holiday i think is the best i can ever have. I went back to Sg first in mid dec to meet up with some of my friends. miss them dearly. met up with my relatives first of cos, met up with mingfen as i have to pass her the blueberry strudle, met up with my buddies from sec sch miss out charmian though.. pity, then met up with my poly friends and of cos a few of the friends from laos trip.

Then i was off to paris to meet up with my mum and dad. we tour the eiffel tower, arc de triomphe, chateau, chambord and many more. we tour paris for 5 days before heading back home at Bordeaux. we rest for a few days and heading to tour Lyon with my dad's collegues. we went to visit the church and snow mountain. played snowball with them.. it was fun. then we headed back bordeaux after 2 days for dinner and my dad went to work. so i stayed home with my mum. accompany her to buy groceries and stuffs while waiting for my sis to arrive in mid Jan.

When my sis came, we went on tour with a tour group to paris and italy. it was great fun. seen lots of historical buildings and took lots of pictures. hehe... the tour took 8 days. bought lots of souviners. End of the tour, we went back paris to get my LVs.. yeah! bought a wallet and key pouch... thks daddy. luv ya!

then we went back home to rest a few days then we were off to Andorra. Its a small country in between France and Spain. We went there for the snow mountain. nice! played snowballs again! the hotel we booked was nice too.. had a kitchen so we had steamboat for dinner. yummy!

then we went home at Bordeaux to help my mum in the CNY function dinner. my mum is in charge of doing the cold dish.. it took us a week. then we went to our ST's CNY dinner... it was fun and we went home and the next day we sat off to our final paris trip. after our trip, me and my sis flew back to S'pore. Miss my parents.

then at S'pore, i manage to meet up with my relatives, 2 of my sec sch buddies and my bowling friends. it was fun and great to meet up with them.. will miss them... hehe.. now back in perth .. uni is abt to start.. going to be busy.... start work 2mr... i shld be ok.. made a lot of changes in life lately.. now is see if i could keep up with and fulfil it... i will do my best... gtg now... blog soon!